Bad Day

Hello thurr.

Yesterday I got something really cute and cool ~♥

my grandma made this headband a few weeks ago but it wasn't really finished yet and yesterday she finished it and look, she made an usamimi for me ~ YAY
I always loved them because they're so cute (; _ ;) and so I asked my grandma if she could sew me one and she did :3
I think it is a little bit too long actually but if you twist it, etc. it's ok and looks cute :>
The pics are not that great, sorry /D tried my best.

Also I tried out a new nail polish I bought like months ago. I always thought it would look the same as another colour I have because they looked almost the same but it is darker and more pretty.
I currently love green, blue and glitter nail polish so much. Especially when the blue and greens are very dark. But since I'm really poor currently I can't buy green nail polish, but I definitely will in the next time. And I'll buy tons of nail polish in the US in april haha. I hope it's cheaper over there :/

lol, look at my pinky. I have no idea how this happened -_- but I'm too lazy to fix it...

it won't last that long anyway...so...yeah /D

Today's practice was so bad -.- seriously. First my main base got knocked out because the flyer landed on her head and then I got kicked in the eye -_- I hope my base is fine again :/ she had to go home because she was so dizzy,etc. :( Well, I don't really care if I get a black eye but my flyer ripped out like half of my eyelashes when she hit my eye -.- worst thing ever to happen in practice. I look so stupid.

I hope these stupid lashes grow fast D:

I'll just wear some falsies the next few days/weeks I think :/

look ;_; I know I'm a "little" whiny but I'm very sensitive about my eyelashes. I don't care about bruises in practice or anything but alksjdlkasjdlaksjdlk WHY MY LASHES. I LOOK LIKE AN IDIOT.

everybody said that there is no difference from before but THERE FUCKING IS.

Ok, I'll stop now because other people suffer from worse pain. 

And I gotta go to bed now because I'm tired and exhausted from school.

Fortunately I don't have school until next wednesday~ :3

Good night ♥

xo 

PS: A bubble tea cafe opened today in my town!!! But when we went there there was a queue that was like 10 m long -_- and we had to go to practice..so...we didn't drink any :(( But I'll go there tomorrow I think ♥ 

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On Friday I went to the city with a friend to buy some stuff (dress,shoes,etc) for some kind of a Yule Ball of my school....but I didn't find anything.

My friend bought some very pretty, black high heels - I can't even wear high heels because I'm even taller than 70% of the guys WITHOUT any shoes. That is fucking depressing :/ I mean flats are nice and I like wearing them but I'd love to be able to wear some gorgeous high heels just once :( I hate being so goddamn tall.

Also my friend already has a dress for the ball and I don't.. :/

I found two very pretty dresses but the first one was..well...Idk. It was a little short (which is actually no problem for me haha) but it didn't really look good on me..because it is very wide around the tummy and tight around the legs :/ and the second one was SO gorgeous and SO cheap (from 160€ reduced to 30€!!!!!) but it was only available in size S and even if I'm pretty thin I'd never fit in that size lol.


This was all so depressing :(

So when I was about to go home I bought some chocolate (I actually don't really like chocolate but I was so depressed that I had an urge to eat some haha) and went to the bus ;_;


Idk what to do now. The  ball is in 2 weeks and I only have a not-so-pretty dress I really don't want to wear. D: Either I find a nice dress (forget the shoes I'll just wear some fcking flats （。。;）) or I just don't go to the ball :<


Sorry (*´Д｀)=3 no pictures in this post. no good pictures and the battery of my camera just died :'D

I just wanted to complain about the current situation ;_;

bye
xo 

Fingerbiting problems....

 

 

I suffer from this so badly. I can't even tell myself to stop because my will is not strong enough. Like seriously. D:

There I had the idea that it maybe will get better if I always wear nail polish. I don't think this will be good for my nails but since I take Biotin it's ok haha.
But my problem is I only have a few nailpolishes because I barely wear any of them. You know, red nail polish takes ages to vanish from your nails and so does blue. and the only other colour I have is brown/purple. XD

But whatever currently I have a metallic blue on my nails and I looove this colour. It is so pretty! But it doesn't really match with my clothes....but I don't care haha. And it is almost empty...or just too old...but you need to paint over and over on the nail with it like 1000 times

and this is the brown/purple....well it looks a little bit like black but it is not black it is just veeery dark. But it's pretty though.


So far it kind of keeps me from biting the skin around my nails....well at least the skin on the 'beginning' of the nail.... :/ I really want to stop with that but I have no idea how. I'm kinda desperate... and my fingers look so ugly and when there's blood all over them,etc they look even worse -.-
(I'm not this "oh I'm so ugly etc" person but when it comes to my hands I'm very....like this haha)


Well, need to go to bed now ~
bye bye :3
xo

PS: I finished It's kind of a funny Story ! It is such a goooooood book!! :))

Skin Problems...

Hello guys.

Oh gosh. I think I'm dying alödköalskd my skin itches like hell at the moment. I have no idea why.
But my skin is really weird in the last time anyway.

About half an year ago (or more) I really had bad skin problems because I kind of had acne but then my cosmetician said that if I started taking the pill it might go away. And it did. I was so happy.
But at the moment everything is so weird.
I have the feeling that my skin is really dry and it gets so oily, maybe because I don't drink enough.
And when I use my night-moisturiser (there is sea salt in it) it gets so fucking itchy.
And in the last time I get little spots too. They're not really big and you can't really see them but I start feeling uncomfortable with it.

My skin looks oily but that's my moisturise XD but I think you can't really see the spots..but yeah :/

That really pisses me off and I'm scared that it will get worse and I'll look like I did half a year ago.
I just want perfect & beautiful skin. D: (at least my acne scars faded away so good!)

I have no idea what to do now. The only thing I'm trying is to drink enough water :/
I hope it will get better again.
If you read this and have any suggestion what I could do, tell me ♥ (; _________ ;)

bye :3
xo

Drawing....

Hello there

You see, I love drawing. I'm not super good but not SO bad either, but in the last time the best drawing of mine is probably this:

I mean I just can't draw anymore. There is NOTHING in my head. I have no ideas. And if I have ideas I can't put them down on a paper.
There are some drawings I drew in January of 2010 and I still like them and I want to draw like that again but I just can't
I have no idea why.

well...yeah... :'D

bye
xo

Two "Problems"

I kind of have two more or less 'problems'.

First:
I always wanted to dye my hair in various colours, but my mum never allowed me (actually I'm pretty grateful for that now haha)
But at the moment I love this natural ginger/red colour so much and I'd love to have hair like that but I don't think I want to dye it, because I'm kind of afraid my hair will end up orange or any other weird colour haha
But now I've discovered the Ombré Tips. And oh my god this is so perfect.

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I mean this looks really cool (the first picture, the second is not that good) and you just dye your TIPS.
But even though this is so good I'm not quite sure if I should try this because my hair just sucks.
It is curly but only on one side really curly & frizzy, the other side is really beautiful and it is the same length for years now (well it grows but because of these stupid curls it stays the same length) and I always air dry my hair and I hardly use a flat iron but even though my tips seem to break. I mean, they are definitely in a better condition than the tips from people who usually blow dry their hair and use flat irons everyday but alksjldkas
I mean I wouldn't be that pissed off by my hair if it would at least have a nice length.
Well, I'll just overthink this, but I really want to do something with my hair and since I can't get a fringe or something I think this is so perfect (it doesn't even have to be in those colours it could be just brown or blonde)

Second:
I really need to buy some lipstick.
In different colours.
Basically just red and nude or coral.
but I don't have much money at the moment.
So I don't know.
Maybe I'll buy some tomorrow/today.
Oh yeah and I need blush. I just have this drugstore-very-cheap-blush. I mean it is ok but I think it is too light. I want to have a darker tone.
Since I don't have much money I think I'll buy either from Maybelline or L'Oreal, they're good but not too expensive (at least I think they're good haha)

and now bye and good night ＼(o￣∇￣o)
need to get some sleep ♪
xo